The Source gate

This is not a formal system. This is just me poking around and observing, making hypotheses an hopefully getting something out of it.

I’ve been studying my own energy systems in an attempt to get them sorted out. There were lots of fun magical energy work things I used to do when I was young and reckless that I can’t do anymore because I overused some bits, burned some stuff, and apparently it wasn’t all there to being with.

Supposedly if you have divine origins, and I believe that most if not all of us do because everything is connected, then there is a divine source of your own signature energy out there somewhere. Since distance and place are murky concepts in the astralsphere, theoretically you should be able to open a gate and tap right into it from any point in the universe. Theoretically, you already have a connection to this source, even if you’re not aware of it, even if it’s pin prick small and shotgun scattered. If you didn’t, it would be nearly impossible for you to function at all. (Sometimes people can make use of other energies to fill in the gaps, but it’s never quite as good.)

I’ve known about these ideas for years, but I couldn’t get the danged thing to work. Apparently the bit of my energetic anatomy that held the source gate was elsewhere, not with me. I still had some connection, but it was difficult to work with. I had to find that missing piece and bring it back. Now that I have it, everything should be happy and working perfectly, right? Wrong. I still have to learn how to use it, remember that it’s there for me to use after doing without for so long, and balance it out with the rest of my energy systems.

For me, this gate is in my heart center. It doesn’t open with force, but with relaxation. I came up with an associated phrase to help my memory. Words are easier to remember than sensations, but it’s the sensation that’s important. The effect is subtle, like opening a window to let in some fresh air. I have to remind myself not to force the energy through or I’ll wear myself out. Sometimes it can bring latent spiritual aches and pains to the surface. The energy hasn’t made them worse, merely reminded me that they’re there. Observe and release. Don’t dwell on it.

Why is this important? Because when this one shuts down, it’s hard to emotionally or spiritually feel much of anything, like practically holding your breath. Sometimes we shut down on purpose to protect ourselves from painful situations. That response can help to prevent additional damage, but it’s not meant to be a permanent solution. Working in small doses, in a safe, quiet environment can help.

I’ve been playing around with a few other energy centers too. Those need to be brought into balance with each other. There’s the grounding gate, the burner, the fuel tank and singularity.¬†¬†This may bear some resemblance to other energy systems you’ve read about, and I have been inspired by those, however, this is my own take on it based on my own experiences and needs.

Practice and inquiry is a must with any system. It’s not all plug and play. The main reason why I’m looking into this myself is because a lot of the advice that gets parroted around doesn’t always work for me. If I had a dollar for every time someone told me to imagine trees roots or make a bubble I’d be rich. Always test your practices against personal experience.